I became a Theistic Satanist in 2009, but my journey goes back to my childhood.

Growing up in a fundamental evangelical christian household, I never felt connected with the deity my family worshipped.

It was not for a lack of trying, but it seemed my prayers were always met with a cold silence. It was like praying to a stone wall.

My parents taught me that their god was all loving and that jesus was my best friend, but that if I did not allow myself to be 'saved', I would suffer eternally by the hands of god's greatest adversary.

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I was also taught the bible was the literal and infallible word of god.

This of course was something that made me question a lot of bible passages growing up.

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As a teenager, I reached out to Satan for the first time. It took me many years before I eventually answered His calling though. I even got baptized as an adult, tried to raise my children with the bible. But more and more questions came and eventually I let go of my childhood religion and followed Satan.

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Looking back, I can say that Satan was always there. I believe I was always His. I think that is one of the reasons why my prayers to jehova went unanswered. They were not his to answer.

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I can shamefully admit I went back to church though, not once, but twice. Satan however did not condemn me, but waited patiently as a loving parent, for me to return. I finally fully chose Satan, because He had chosen me a long time ago. I am back in the arms of the Primordial One, where I belong.

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My life has been so much better after doing so. I have grown strong, independent and have learned that prayer IS answered, as long as you pray to the right God.

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Satanism is NOT about human or animal sacrifice. On the contrary; most Satanists see children and animals as sacred, as innocent. To harm them, is a great evil. Satanism DOES represent freedom of thought, freedom of will, self preservation and self development.

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Hail Satan, now and forever!